Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Israel at War

Get out your Bible, dust it off, and read all about it.
Nothing new here. G-d aids Israel in times of war and
even fights for them at times. But is G-d with them this
time? I believe G-d is always with Israel and always will
be. If it is the will of G-d, then Israel will send in ground
troops. Too many people are praying for Israel to keep
it in the will of G-d, but the darkness seeps in like a vapor-
ous mist that Israel loves to inhale. So, the prayers could
be in vain if Israel does not listen to the voice of G-d thru
its rabbi's. Those in power may not be religious, but if 
they are, then Israel will be OK. But then again,
I am bipolar and full of all kinds of emotional dissonance.
What I say or think should not matter in a normal society.
I have my own little war right here inside of my own little
bipolar head. So the fact that there are people dying all 
around (Gaza) right now, seems like a million light years
away from my "little" reality right here at home inside my
head. Maybe if I was not bipolar, I could hold on to ONE 
emotion about it all, but that is not possible with me.
My emotions are in constant flux or movement. like the
tectonic plates, they move and shift around causing at times
great earth quakes in my whole being. To just sit idle on 
one emotional and ideological idea is not possible for me.
I can only glimpse flashes of reality while normal people
live in the daylight of reality. That is why I need G-d since
G-d is the only stable reality I know. Now I have to go and
eat breakfast.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

More War for 2009

Troops are building up around the borders of middle East sensitive areas. Looks like something big is about to happen. As a believer in Bible prophecies, apart from the now Gaza/Israeli conflict, something bigger is about to happen. It has something to do with
the U.S.A. being sorta between presidents right now. They in that region are taking advantage
of the seeming, leadership vacuum we and they think we have. Shit might even hit the fan.....

Monday, December 29, 2008

But I Personally Believe.....

That Obama was sent here from the future
by the Democratic New World Order, in a 
space ship time machine. And that he Obama
has ties to higher celestial beings who have
ties to other spiritual beings who have ties
to G-d. The plan is to take over the entire 
universe by using the power of goodness.
Something sounds fishy to me even though
there will be no fish in heaven. But fish don't
sound, but if they did, what would they sound like?
Who cares? well, maybe the fish do....Do fish have
ears? U can tune a piano, but U can't tune a fish.
So, there it is in all its splendor. 

Out of Touch with Reality

The U.S.A. is out of touch with the reality that its
spiritual side is all but dead. Modern Americans 
have a drive-thru sense of their Christianity. But 
that kind of spiritual fast food leads to spiritual 
malnutrition and ultimately spiritual death. 
While it is true that you can not work your way
to heaven, it is also true that there will be no
loafing around once you get there. There will be
plenty of jobs in heaven. But here on earth, what
gets you into heaven is your belief & faith.

But you can't believe and have faith unless you
really know G-d and what knowing G-d really 
means to you. But you can't really know G-d 
from a drive thru point of view. That would mean
that your view of G-d is also drive thru. I don't
believe that one can acquire heaven unless one
can really believe in heaven. If you have a drive
thru view of heaven, then your heaven will be
a drive thru heaven. But a drive thru heaven is
not the real heaven of G-d who you can not just
drive thru, and still really understand.
Anyone who wants to get into heaven, must sit
still and contemplate upon it. This contemplation
will help build the belief system that will form
your faith. Since it is impossible to please G-d
without faith, then the more faith you have 
increases your chance of getting into heaven.

Faith is your key into heaven, but it is also 
important to know what heaven is like before
one can believe in it. If you do not know what
heaven really is and what it is all about. Then you
can just forget about going there.
First rule of heaven: No McDonalds there.
Also be aware that one can keep all ten 
commandments but still not have enough faith
to actually get into heaven. So, to say the least
it's a bit tricky getting there.  Where?
Where ever it is that you have enough faith to be.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Life Goes On

After all the scandals of 2008, life goes on.
Nobody will care in a hundred years
what happens today. It's all vanity and
a chasing after wind. We humans are just
the product of time and not times creator.
We are the creatures not the creator.
We are here today but gone tomorrow.
We are all just passing through on are way
to eternity. 

Saturday, December 27, 2008

I live in a Bubble

I live in a bubble of my own making.
cut off from most of society & people.
It's better 4 me to just live a monastic
life style away from the temptations
of daily life, and as per my faith in G-d.

My bipolarity is not just in my head alone
especially while it directly effects others.
So the less contact I have with U all in 
person, the better 4 us all. I do believe
that my bipolarity is spirit possession in
varied degrees. I am now working on this
as though it were some kind of metaphysical
mathematical equation through formula
thinking. But this kind of thinking can only
be done while in a mania which I am still
waiting 4.

I have another mania coming. I will always
have another mania coming. So I am learning
to program my projects as per my manic cycles.
Personally, my depressive cycle kills all ambition
to do anything in life. Art? forget it! Not while
I'm depressed. So it is during my manic cycle that
I am at my best 4 creating art and the like.
Mania gives me energy to create and is the fuel
that runs my jet engine of creative genius.

So I am planing 4 my next manic cycle coming up
soon, to think tank about the spiritual connection
that bipolarity has to the human body. I have already
outlined this idea in my e-book called: Bipolarity And
computer I used to write the book on, blew up before 
I could get it all on my blog.............Oh Well! 
I do have it backed up on a CD, so one of these days
I will get it all posted, right after I buy a new P/C
For now, I am coming to U on my MacBook channel
or something like that!..................over.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Xmas is Over

Thank G-d 4 that!

About the Jewish Madoff thing!
There is another part to being Jewish
that is now being neglected by all the
Jew haters. That being the creative 
artistic side. Nobody is expected to
like any Jewish bankers now, but we
all still love the Jewish creative genius
which is made up of most all the hollywood
and New York artist scene.........we like
Jewish doctors too!
Don't hate all Jews, just because of one 
real bad one.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Christmas Day 2008

I stopped liking Christmas as a kid, so the
whole notion of this day makes me depressed.
Someday I might get over it, but I doubt it.

Happy Holiday 

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

From the Sonnets of Sorrow and Joy


Ill sorrow why have you come back to me,
Did I not send you far from me before?
I packed your bags and shipped you out to sea,
Telling you,I don't love you anymore,
Yet here you stand at my front door again,
Telling me that you love me ever still,
Save God will have to forgive me my sin,
Of letting you in,so you I can kill,
I'll bury you in my backyard at night,
So there will be no witness to this crime,
I'll kill you in the basement,out of sight,
It's best for me in the morning time,

Wait,where are you going,don't run away?
I Vant to have you for dinner,please stay.

To read more of my sonnets click here.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Can't Separate The Two

I can not separate my bipolarity from my faith.
To me, bipolarity is spirit possession as in the
spirit of bipolarity. A spirit created by G-d who
also is spirit. The chemical imbalance of bipolarity
is caused by the two opposing spirits which make

Bipolarity is linked to creative genius.
click here to see Touched With Fire.

The word genius as everyone should know, comes from the word
genie or jinn. The following four definitions are directly from the 

Genius 1. genii 3. a person having extraordinarily high intelligence,
esp. one with an I.Q. of 140 or above.
7. either of two mutually opposed spirits, one good
and one evil, supposed to attend a person throughout his life.

9. usually genii. any demon or spirit, esp. a jinn.

Jinn 1. any of a class of spirits, lower than the angels capable of
appearing in human and animal forms, and influencing mankind
for good and evil. (also see djin)

Muse 1. a. any of a number of sister goddesses, originally given as
Aoede (song) b. any goddes presiding over a particular art.
3. the genius or powers charateristic of a poet.

Genie 1. Islamic . Jinn.

Daemon 1. a. a god. b. a subordinate deity, as the genius of a place or
A man’s attendant spirit

Sunday, December 21, 2008

G-d Loves Even Me

I believe that G-d loves even stupid crazy
bipolar stinky dumb ignorant sinner dirty 
lazy me. So he must love U too. Even the 
demons believe & tremble in fear.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

My Joy Went Out

My enthusiasm and spark for life went out 
a few months ago. I contribute this to my
bipolarity. I am now in my depressive state
of my manic-depressive cycle. I do not use 
common bipolar medications, since I want
to let my creativity flourish, and all such 
meds, just keep my creative mania down.
If I could always be in a controlled mania,
then I would have it made. 

Oh L-RD of heavens armies, please let me
know the joy of your salvation again. Fill
me with your holy spirit and joyful presence.

When U see Santa Oh L-RD, tell him to
just bring me joy and nothing else.

Friday, December 19, 2008

String Theory

In the physics world string theory is the thing.
I believe all those little strings to be (spirit) G-d. 
They say that those strings R to small to ever
be detected. Thus it stays a theory....... or is based 
on belief thru mathematical equations. I can mathe-
matically theorize the existence of G-d, tho I can not 
prove it....same thing.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Me in the Darkness

The above photo was taken today of me
in the darkness & confusion of life.
Outside is the light of G-d, but I am afraid
to go outside. I believe in the light outside
and I even worship it, but I am afraid of
it. It's (His) name is Fear, but His love
endures forevermore. Oh L-RD G-d of
heaven, keep me safe within your heart,
& forgive my sins.......................amen.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I Believe But it's Hard

The hardest thing 4 me to understand tho
I believe it, is that G-d my creator never had
a beginning. I can even think of and sorta 
comprehend eternity as never ending.
But the truth that G-d never had a beginning
just blows my mind. We understand the 
universe to be approx. 14-15 billion years old.
We Christians believe that G-d created the
universe, but how long before that big bang
moment, was G-d just hanging around all
by Himself?  Can't go there girlfriend!

It makes me wonder if maybe we humans were
not the first experiment at creation. Were there
others before us? As per the laws of evolution
yes! if you believe in evolution thru creation as
I do. All creation is in a state of constant evolution.
And for a G-d without beginning, that's the way
it should be. That is to say, G-d does not appear to
be in any hurry to empress any of us temporal, 
here today but gone tomorrow, humans.
It seems that G-d has bigger fish to fry.

"His faithful love endures forever."
Psalms 136 

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Spiritual Political News

In the political spiritual realm today.
King Yeshua met with the 24 elders
earlier today, and had talks concerning
the Kings soon second coming. After 
the talks, the 4 beasts that surround 
the Kings throne, said amen.

7 golden trumpets and golden bowls 
were marched through heaven today
while millions of angels shouted " The
day of the L-RD is nigh." One angel who
was interviewed said, that "those are the
7 trumpets mentioned in the book of 
Revelations, and that they are being
taken each to his appointed angel."

The L-RD declined to be interviewed but
only said "the time of repentance is now."
In other news, G-d our Father and L-RD
is working full time with cabinet members
in His war against evil and sin. Secretary 
of war and Archangel Michael said that 
"every effort is being made to squelch the 
devils fire at the front lines, and that more 
angelic troops will be needed."

The Ambassador to Earth and Archangel 
Gabriel said "While the inhabitants of
earth continue in their sins, G-d can do
little to help them. But if all humans on
earth repent of their sins, then G-d can
send angelic armies and troops to earth
to aid in that battle front against evil."

Satan on earth has gathered his fallen troops
to enter New York City..............

Monday, December 15, 2008

Yeshua Lives Forevermore

The following is copied from


1. The condition of humankind is that of fallen creatures, rebellious against G-d and full of sin. Mankind was cursed because of disobedience to G-d. Without salvation from sin (removal of sin) mankind is due punishment, in fact death (removal from G-d). But G-d, in His mercy, provided a way of escape from death to people who will seek to do His will.

2. G-d appointed the holy people, Israel, to bring salvation to all mankind through the person of the Messiah (Anointed One or Appointed One) of Israel, the Savior of the world.

3. The hope and necessity of the Messiah was revealed through the feasts (service of worship) and commandments (moral requirements) which G-d gave to Israel.

4. In the fulness of time G-d sent His Son (meaning G-d Himself in human flesh), who was and is Yeshua (Jesus) of Nazareth, to be the Messiah for sin, therefore to be a sacrifice and a substitution for the punishment due us all. This sacrifice was accomplished through His death on the Roman execution stake.

5. Only G-d Himself is not due the punishment of death, so He alone could stand in our place. Having done this He rose from the dead and ascended back to power in Heaven.

6. Messiah Yeshua has commissioned those who trust that He is L-RD to go and tell this message to all who will hear.

7. Those who hear and place their trust in Him as Savior and L-RD are rescued (redeemed) from the curse of sin and death and will live eternally. The full promise will appear when Messiah returns and the resurrection of the dead takes place.

8. Until then those who belong to Messiah are given the "down payment" of the Spirit of G-d residing in them to help them know G-d's instructions for right living according to the Bible, so that people might see their good works and glorify the G-d of Heaven.

9. If you do not know Yeshua as your Messiah and/or Savior, you can receive Him now by confessing your sins to Him, then asking Him to come into your life and make you a new person. Your entry way to G-d's throne will be made clear and you can then learn all that His Word says, because you will have the strength through His presence in you.

10. There is no other way than just described for anyone on earth to live with a clear conscience; to know that all sin is gone; that the debt for our sin is paid, and to know nothing (but our own willful disobedience) can separate us from G-d's love.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

The End Is Near

4 the End is Near

Only after being a Christian for 52 years Do
I finally understand the child like simplicity
of it all. My Bipolarity aside, I now understand
that it is the belief in Yeshua (Christ Jesus)
that he was who he said he was and did what
he said he did, that stamps my ticket into
heaven. Not anything else I do or believe will
get me or anyone else into heaven.

Believing that he was fully God born of a virgin 
and fully human born from a human women into the 
human family. That he died and rose to life again
on the third day. And that he rose to heaven and
is now seated on the right hand of God. That he 
will return again for his chosen and beloved people
and also for those gentiles that believe as well.

Any ?'s

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Bipolar News Today

Bipolarity is Demon Possession. 
U don't believe me.
& I don't care.

Try & have a nice day anyway.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Bipolarity is Demon Possession.

The comment left below is typical of modern
doctors. But I personally believe that bipolarity
is caused by the spirit of bipolarity given to
mankind (O.T.Jews) by God. Only constant prayer
can keep one stable. Shalom!

Blogger Dr.Michael said...

Bipolar disorder is not a single disorder, but a category 

of mood disorders characterized by the presence of one

 or more episodes of abnormally elevated mood, clinically

 referred to as mania. Individuals who experience manic 

episodes also commonly experience depressive episodes or

 symptoms, or mixed episodes in which features of both 

mania and depression are present

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Starting to come out of Depression

I am just now starting to come up & out
of my long depressive cycle. G-d that
was hard. Imagine if I had just lost it 4
even a second, I could have killed myself.

That is how serious bipolarity really is.
People with this mental illness kill
themselves everyday. I really have been
one of the lucky ones so far. Keep me
in your prayers.  

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

About My Jewish Background

I remember about 30 years ago my Jewish Father
telling me: "Son, many of your past relatives 
were marched into the ovens by Hitler."

Those relatives were Checkoslovakian Jews.
I was born in Los Angeles California in 1956
so I am as far away from those ovens & gas
chambers as possible. But I still have Jewish
blood in my veins even tho I am a modern 
American Christian. Does that make me a

Monday, December 08, 2008

The G-d of Elijah

The G-d of Elijah is the only true G-d.
Because He never had beginning.

Where is the G-d of Elijah?
that I may worship You who
created the heavens & the earth.

All praise be to the G-d of Elijah!

Friday, December 05, 2008

Back Home Again

I rolled into town yesterday afternoon from my 
spirit walk/drive. Nothing has changed I am still
depressed. I notice someone left a comment about
Jesus & the spirit world & being set free........well
I am already a Christian which has nothing to do
with bipolarity & depression. Just reading some 
book is NOT going to bring me up & out of this
deep depression which is caused by bipolarity.

I put my forehead down on my prayer rug every day
& ask God to help me.......& if that don't work......then
just reading some book won't help either. Besides, I
already know all about the spirit world. There is no
other book written that can teach me anything new.
Depression is not cured by reading some book.
& Christianity does NOT cure depression. Good try
who ever U were that left that comment in the post
below. I thank U for trying. God bless U.

Also, Did U listen to my piano music? 
That would actually cheer me up more
than reading any book.......Enjoy!

Monday, December 01, 2008

Going on a Spirit Walk

I am starting out today on a spirit walk (drive) to
Santa Cruz California, my old stomping ground.
I hope this will help me up from my deep depression.
So this will be my last entry for at least a week.

Angel De Fuego