Hard To Keep Up With It All

My 89 year old Mother sitting on my Harley in 2010

I find it hard to keep up with life while being depressed.

I don't like always coming here with my depression and

at a low point. But i have nothing else to write about.

My whole life has become about my damn depression.

Today I went on new meds for my bipolar to see if I can

get feeling better. I can't handle being depressed anymore

so I am going on Lithium even though Lithium hampers

my creative spark. If I can stay baseline then I can create

and hopefully my new meds cocktail will do that. :-|

Creating Art While Depressed?

I guess technically speaking, I could create art while depressed,

but I really don't have the feeling to do it while depressed. So

I need to force myself just a little to get into a creative mood.

A lot depends on if I am set up or not. Meaning is everything

ready or do I have to do something else first?

It's pretty easy to just sit down at the piano and start playing

a beautiful improv, but when the piano is all the way out in

the garage and I have to walk out in the rain to get to it, then

thats something else. Also The piano/keyboard is connected

to a computer which I must first turn on to activate the piano

program. Anyway........... Each thing I have to do makes it harder

to do the thing that I wanted to do in the first place. That is what

bipolar depression is all about.

Welcome to my world!

Can't Create While Depressed

I do most all of my piano stuff while manic or at least baseline.

It just takes too much energy while depressed or seems that way.

Wishing I would cycle up to manic soon.