Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

Flying Around The Room Or Climbing The Walls

Sometimes the meds that I take for bipolar have me
either flying around the room or climbing the walls.
So I just try to ride it out or walk it off if I can. :-|

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Working On My Music

Lately I have been in my studio/man cave working on music. It is a sign
that I am doing a little better, than the last few years of depression and
no productivity. Right now I am learning about my music software and
just how it all works still, after 15 years with different versions of the same
program. I am running Cubase SX. and I can do symphonies all day long
with endless tracks of music. The possibilities are wide open.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Feeling A Little Better

I am feeling a little better as time goes by. Now I am starting
to write some jazz music on piano and such. Anyway..........

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Being Baseline

As a bipolar artist I struggle to be baseline which means not too manic
and not too depressed. My medications are supposed to keep me level
and they far..............knock on wood.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Welcome To My Blog

Below you will find audio links of my music compositions
and some of my Sonnets. The above title picture is called
Michael and the Dragon which was done on Microsoft Paint
in 2008. Please enjoy all my music and art.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Thursday, November 04, 2010

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

11 Excerpt's From: Sonnets From Adam

Sonnets From Adam

These sonnets have an
rhyme scheme. written
in 1990 by Angel De Fuego

These are the first 11 of 35 sonnets.


I heard the angels singing on that day
When you made me from dust and morning dew
Upon what land I stood I knew not where
Save all at once in Eden I then stood
The garden of my sadness and my joy
Where I first heard your voice and saw your face
And where I first fell from your perfect grace
To end up where the barren lands destroy
And nothing flourishes to any good
Where even the most fruitful land is bare
Yet even though I work the land anew
It quickly dies to then wither away

So I being the product of your hands
Will die and wither as these worthless lands.


Lilith now tries my patience day and night
Insisting to be leader when we dance
This women on top always wants to be
Whenever it is we are making love
And now I see a darkness in her eyes
As if to say her soul is colored black
And that a sense of goodness she must lack
And in her speech I hear the blatant lies
bellowing down from her throat perched above
Which I am forced to look upward to see
Pref'ing to close my eyes with just a glance
While all the time feeling somethings not right

I can not spend forever looking up
At Lilith drinking from her macho cup.


New wife Eve acts lover to the serpent
I've seen her go to the forbidden tree
And console with the serpent night and day
And the serpent wraps himself around her
Then licks her body with his lying tongue
It breaks my heart to see this happening
But nothing I could do would stop such thing
Since you have said that she will do this wrong
Thus causing me to fall a sorcerer
To call upon the stars to lead my way
Through the black magic of my sorcery
Which to creation bears the testament

That my new wife has well angered the Lord
So now we die commanded by his word.


Give me O Lord another chance to prove
That I am worthy of your sweetest grace
Ignoring now the council of my sin
To stand before your throne with purest heart
Giving to you the praise to you is due
Even though to praise you I'm unworthy
Deserving hell for all eternity
For all transgressions I have done to you
Perfecting sin as though it were an art
Practicing evil time and time again
Until my goodness leaves no goodly trace
Upon the earth where I have killed all love

Give me another chance to prove that I
For your sweet love am willing now to die.


Was I so wrong to love my precious Eve
Even as you yourself also loved me ?
As I in your own image then was made
So Eve was also in my image brought
Flesh of my flesh and bone of my own bone
So how is it that I am now to blame
For joining my fire with hers to one flame
After so many years being alone
Without her warmth and fam'ly we begot
And all those years alone at night I laid
Thinking away my dull eternity
Without a lover in who to believe

And so you made her from my loneliness
To lead me into all unrighteousness.


So now the women tells me what to do
Like she was the first to be created
And I was the first to commit that sin
I can't do this I better not do that
Or I should do that or I should do this
Plotting against me now behind my back
As If a sense of goodness I should lack
Betraying me to Satan with a kiss
While wearing as it were her judges hat
Which now I've seen her wear time and again
Versing with Satan I am debated
As if who's hands I'll fall in him or you

So now I have to jump at her commands
While jumping to avoid his and your hands.


Again I find myself alone and sad
Since my fair Eve has gone far from me now
From all the disagreements that we have
Which brought me to the point of striking her
As though she were my mortal enemy
Instead of my wife for which she was mad
When still next to my side she calmly laid
And I yet held her for eternity
But alls amiss now a nebulous blur
Without a trace of hope for me to save
My marriage for which I do sadly cow
Grasping for something in which to be glad

It would have been better to be alone
Than suffer now giving her my rib bone.


Fair Eve has been gone from me seven days
Which now seems more like seven thousand years
The loneliness which I alone must bear
As punishment for my rebellious will
Which separation chose itself from you
Amids confusion of my selfishness
Which hinders the scope of my consciousness
And blinding me to what is really true
The view atop of your celestial hill
But now at barren lands and weeds I stare
Which seems more ugly now behind my tears
That flood the valley where my sorrow stays

And until my fair Eve returns to me
Days are longer than nights eternity.


I miss you even more than I miss Eve
Yet now my love for her is ever strong
And she shall return in a few short weeks
But you sometimes I fear I'll never see
And sometimes wonder if I ever saw?
For Eden was for me so long ago
The truth of Eden I no longer know
But it is for your love and perfect law
Which makes me look for your eternity
Beyond the high crests of the tallest peaks
And up to heaven from all earthly wrong
To you in who my soul needs to believe

And though you hide from me forevermore
I'll always search for heavens creator.


I only have myself to blame for this
Pain of all my suff'rage my woe and strife
I should have let the women die alone
Not sharing with her what was forbidden
But I was afraid of my loneliness
To watch Eve die alone would break my heart
I could not from my Eve then be apart
So I gave her my love and forgiveness
And together were cast out of Eden
After I ate with her the truth was shown
Of good and evil and the tree of life
The end of paradise and our sweet bliss

It was then fears lost love did make me eat
The fruit which both is bitter and is sweet.


My spirit longs to soar the solar winds
Between the countless stars that heaven shows
Save were not pris'ner to ill flesh and time
Can only dream of such a pilgrimage
The hopeful questing of forbidden glimpse
Of your own image in who's mine was made
Ere earth was siege'd by evils darkest shade
Where I could still hear your most hollowed steps
Within the garden of my heritage
Where all things had their reason and their rhyme
But there your sweetest breath no longer blows
And where it does my spirit never finds

Unless by chance would see you passing by
Knowing I'm dead or that I'm soon to die.

Angel De Fuego
copyright 1990

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Three Versions of Life

Three Versions of Life
(The Other Trinity)

These Sonnets have an
rhyme scheme. There are 7
Sonnets per each 3 versions,
for a total of 21 Sonnets.
Written in 1989 in Mexico

First version The version of Satan,
as the representation of evil

I shall be judged for evil I have done,
And then be bound in chains with a black mass,
But I again shall rise to victory,
After a thousand years and not before,
Just as was prophesied so long ago,
To torment and hence to be tormented,
The gnashing of my teeth shall quake the earth,
Raging fire shall exhale with my hot breath,
To burn all armies who are intended,
On marching my domain a holy foe,
Outside all boundaries of my godly core,
And just as Jesus walked across the sea,
So I shall walk across the sea of glass,
To take my place upon my golden throne,

As I fell the Archangel Lucifer,
So shall you all fall with me to the fire.

There shall be a battle fought in heaven,
And I shall bring Jehovah to His knees,
I shall ascend to heaven the most high,
To rule the universe my perfect way,
As I am the most perfect creation,
And all shall sing their praises to my name,
And all shall acknowledge I am their god,
Or I'll curse them for the dark roads they trod,
And for their evil deeds by which they came,
Lo I shall give them endless temptation,
And for their goodness I shall make them pay,
Then wiping on their tears I'll make them cry,
I'll plague them with hatred like a disease,
Forgive them not seventy times seven,

I fell as the Archangel Lucifer,
And they shall all fall with me to the fire

And there shall be a new heaven and hell,
Then I shall cast a darkness on the earth,
And no holy light shall shine upon it,
For I shall bind the God of light in chains,
And cast Him to the darkness ever more,
Then all the hosts of heaven I'll cast out,
Except the bloody lamb who is the Christ,
For He shall sit on my left side a priest,
And he shall punish those who turn about,
From evil to the goodness they adore,
And they shall have no hope,and have no gains,
Save my hot fire to burn them in my pit,
And I shall make them fornicate new birth,
To smite their child who rings the holy bell,

I fell as the Archangel Lucifer,
And you shall all fall with me to the fire.

Lo I shall make my armies to march forth,
To conquer all creation in my name,
And there shall be no spirit that can hide,
From my demons of darkness bearing swords,
Who soar the heavens on their blacken wings,
Like vampires by night in search of blood,
To bite all men who walk upon the ground,
Where ever there's a goodly spirit found,
Converting them to darkness from the good,
And I shall delight in such evil things,
To see them desecrate the holy words,
The prophets wrote and left after they died,
And for myself all kingdoms I shall claim,
From East to West and then from South to North,

As I fell the Archangel Lucifer,
You shall all fall with me to the fire.

Lo I shall defecate upon the earth,
And from my defecation shall arise,
The new Hades of brimstone and of fire,
Lo it shall burn throughout eternity,
And it shall be full of celebration,
And every kind of evil shall abide,
And everyone shall be drunk with new wine,
Which is fermented blood of fated swine,
And I shall make each harlot my own bride,
To fill them with my divine erection,
And my seaman shall flow as a vast sea,
And my children in evil shall aspire,
To be the sons and daughters of my lies,
And they shall find in goodly-nous no worth,

As I fell the Archangel Lucifer,
So shall they all fall with me to the fire.

Lo I shall make the dark empire a jewel,
To place upon my flaming golden crown,
For it alone is worthy to hang there,
With all its hypocrites and false teachers,
With all its decadence and all its takers,
With all its murders and its drug abuse,
With all its raping and pornography,
Its youth aspiring to be like me,
Its criminals who have no real excuse,
Its prissiness and its god like fakers,
Its political conniving creatures,
Its presidents who golf without a care,
While all its social structures tumble down,
Save for the rich who treat the poorly cruel,

I fell as the Archangel Lucifer,
And I shall fall them with me to the fire.

Yea I shall write upon their hearts my verse,
And they shall make my prophecies their lust,
And they shall bring to me for sacrifice,
Their twelve tribes of virgin first born daughters,
And I shall posses every living thing,
And there shall be no peace throughout the land,
I shall replace love with bitter hatred,
And there shall be nothing which is sacred,
For I shall reach out with my burning hand,
And to myself all things a flamed I'll bring,
I shall change the physics of their matters,
To hottest hot from all the coldest ice,
And I shall open full my burning thrust,
For I shall set ablaze the universe,

As I fell the Archangel Lucifer,
So shall you all fall with me to the fire.

Second version The version of Christ
As the representation of goodness.

Get behind me you serpent Lucifer,
For I shall truly bind you once again,
And you shall never rise again from hell,
And you shall burn for every evil thing,
And I shall command that you let those free,
For whom I died for on redemption's cross,
But rose again to life on the third day,
And I'll return to take them all away,
Beyond a bridge which stretches far across,
To heaven where they'll live eternally,
To stand before the throne of God and sing,
And I say this is true what I now tell,
That they who ask me to forgive their sin,
Shall never burn with you in the hot fire,

I am the risen Christ the Lord Jesus,
And I shall raise them to my consciousness.

And they shall live in new Jerusalem,
And I shall walk with them on streets of gold,
And everyone shall have a mansion there,
Even where the lamb lies with the lion,
As it is written in the holy word,
And God shall wipe the tears from all their eyes,
And they shall praise God through eternity,
Before His throne of gold on the glass sea,
Neath emerald rainbow in heavenly skies,
And He who brings not peace, but a sword,
Does also rest His feet upon Zion,
And sits upon His golden throne to hear,
Angelic choirs the shepherds did behold,
When the bright star shined over Bethlehem,

I am the living Christ the Lord Jesus,
And they shall all rise to my consciousness.

And I shall profess them to my Father,
That they who know me, I also know them,
And they shall enter into the city,
Which I have prepared with carpenters hands,
Of perfect jewels and treasures and of gold,
And it will descend from God and through space,
Star-gating from His Godly womb of birth,
To land upon the new and perfect earth,
A gift to mankind from His perfect grace,
Who's countenance the angels now behold,
The brightness that now all around Him stands,
His glory shining through eternity,
The light of his beloved Jerusalem,
Where the chosen shall love each his brother,

I am the risen Christ the Lord Jesus,
And I shall rise these to my consciousness.

And after the last seed has been planted,
There shall grow from it the tree of knowledge,
And they shall partake of the fruit it gives,
For He shall teach to them His own wisdom,
And they shall learn the truth forevermore,
They shall be His righteous sons and daughters,
And He shall make them gods over angels,
Who drink from the well of the Evangels,
Which flows from the sea of living waters,
Beyond the bridge which leads to heavens door,
Which He shall open wide to His kingdom,
Where He Himself our holy Father lives,
To brightly shine through every coming age,
That His perfect will should be exalted,

I am the living Christ the Lord Jesus,
And they shall all rise to my consciousness.

And now I tell you what must come to pass,
Before I return for those who love me,
For whom I have sacrificed my own blood,
Even after death I kept my promise,
To rise again that they may also live,
But before I return, there must be love,
Or I shall have nothing to return for,
Behold I stand and knock at each mans door,
And if just one should look to me above,
Should open up his heart to freely give,
I then shall greet him with the Masters kiss,
And bless him for his faith which makes him good,
Lo we shall return to eternity,
To walk to God across the sea of glass,

I the Christ and Jesus the Lord, sala,
Shall rise him to my conscious nirvana.

And does not nature herself teach to you,
Behold the time is near even at hand,
The harvest moon shall soon turn to blood red,
And now is the time to prepare yourselves,
For each kind of trial and tribulation,
The sign that I soon return for my own,
And in those days kings shall have the power,
To destroy the earth within an hour,
And every kind of warring shall be known,
Until the final annihilation,
But let not my words dust upon your shelves,
And take to heart believing what I said,
For I shall return to earths quaking land,
To take Gods children back to Him anew,

I am the living Christ the Lord Jesus,
And I shall raise them to my consciousness.

Yes I shall teary until every ear,
Has heard the news, I died but rose from death,
To take my place at the right hand of God,
And every man shall have an equal chance,
To be forgiven of his natures sin,
And stand before God without a blemish,
But with a spirit pure and white as snow,
The envy of angels who can not know,
Gods forgiving love which is unselfish,
Which He has shown to man time and again,
And with each passing hour does enhance,
To guide the steps of those on His road trod,
And fill them with His life's renewing breath,
While to His throne, they ever closer near,

I am the living Christ the Lord Jesus,
And I shall rise them to my consciousness.

The third version The version of Adam
As the representation of mankind.

We know you both are real, Satan and God,
We've heard it said this must be hell on earth,
And we have heard it said this must be heaven,
We see the destruction and the evil,
We see the caring and the peace and love,
And see the evidence of evil kings,
We've seen some promises of good come true,
And some of us believe in both of you,
But we still lack the answers to some things,
While some of us live by the stars above,
Others of us work to be more civil,
While some of us are balanced and are even,
The rest of us are falling from new birth,
To kill for pleasure, on the roads we trod,

We just are all the souls that mankind is,
And we shall rise or fall to our abyss.

We shall surly cause our own destruction,
If we should send forth our flaming arrows,
Not having the full consciousness of it,
Which is our labeled spirit Lucifer,
And His fire shall consume the world,
Until it burns out and it cools to dust,
We prophesied that this would come to pass,
If we don't somehow raise our consciousness,
Leaving behind natural selected lust,
Evolving from our inner-godly word,
And learning how to control our own fire,
Rising it through our Chakras from our pit,
To our heads where it nirvana hallows,
Completing the cycle of creation,

We all are just the souls that mankind is,
An we shall fall and rise to our abyss.

And we now stagnate from suffered karma,
The result of a foolish chosen cause,
We could be light years from our present state,
If not for our greed of instant pleasure,
Which natural selects itself to comfort,
Choosing the valleys easy way back home,
Regardless of the storm ahead rising,
To flood the Vally while compromising,
The higher harder trail still safe to roam,
Which also yields the means to build a fort,
From the fierce storms battle in full measure,
Of every kind of selfish greed and hate,
For which we need to have a billion laws,
Which we would not need with perfect dharma,

We are all just the souls that mankind is,
And we shall fall or rise from our abyss.

Look, we could have god-like technology,
To star-gate to other universes,
If it was not for blinding ignorance,
And the fear that there's nothing after death,
Of the growing mass's of common man,
Who can not raise his consciousness enough,
To see the truth beneath his very nose,
And even though as plain as day it shows,
We still ignore the truth for worthless stuff,
Which ends up in the mortal garbage can,
Like every wasted and conceited breath,
Of each of us who pay our recompense,
To support the war save it disperses,
And peace should finally have eternity,

We all are just the souls that mankind is,
And we will rise or fall in our abyss.

And while we proceed in our destruction,
We proceed to destroy our Mother earth,
And without her womb, there is no mankind,
And without man there is no consciousness,
Of the living Core, some now call God,
And though Gods consciousness will still exist,
There would not be a consciousness of it,
By man who creates what he will admit,
Without knowledge of what it does consist,
To himself what is true and what's facade,
About what's spiritual and what's religious,
About what's seen or hid from those are blind,
About good and bad and of death and birth,
Of cause and effect and evolution,

We just are all the souls that mankind is,
And we can rise or fall in our abyss.

Now everybody claims to know the truth,
But every truth has its definition,
Which brightly shines proceeding from the Core,
An ever-living conscious without birth,
Completing the ring of eternity,
Like a perfect sphere the center of space,
An eye which see's itself inside and out,
And while the sun does look upon our doubt,
We sit at our tables to say the grace,
To thank it for its warm prosperity,
Which yields the fruits of Mother natures earth,
And to all it would yield an ample store,
If not for that old selfish condition,
Of man's obsession with his dying youth,

We are just all the souls that mankind is,
And we shall fall or rise from our abyss.

A clock ticks on after it's maker dies,
But it too must some day stop forever,
Yet not after perhaps a thousand years,
So how much more will mankind's heart tick on,
Made by the Core which lives eternally?
As a whole mankind could mechanism,
Making his conscious an eternal clock,
To star-gate himself through deaths cryptic rock,
Of every kind of fanaticism,
Of what the real truth should or should not be,
Before it's too late and the chance is gone,
And mankind's left to bare unhopeful tears,
To kill the Womb of his blessed Mother,
And his extinction finally does realize,

All we are, is just the souls mankind is,
And we shall rise or fall to our abyss.

The End

Angel De Fuego
copyright 1989

Sunday, October 10, 2010


Today is the tenth month, the tenth day, and the tenth
year. Why is this important?

I have no idea.!!!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Struggling With Bipolar

I am still having a hard time with depression.
I started Prozak a few days ago, so maybe that
will help.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Inducing Mania

sleep study

I have learned that less sleep will make me manic
while more sleep will make me depressed.
Someone in their depressive cycle like me should
try to sleep less (4 hours) each night or less.

Also staying up all night and not sleeping till the
next night should snap one out of a depression cycle
and then 4 hours a night after that should maintain
a baseline well balanced between mania and depression.

I will put this to the test to find out if this will work
for me. Details at eleven.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

No Sign of Returning

long empty roads

I am still waiting for my manic creative side to
cycle back again. But so far there seems to be
no sign of it returning. That adds to my already
depressive state making me even worse.

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Friday, July 02, 2010

Poor Starving Bastards

Cargo fails to dock with space station

The rocket carrying the ProgressThe Progress is a Russian cargo vehicle

The Russian cargo vehicle Progress has failed to dock with the International Space Station after an apparent electronics failure.

There was a failure of "telemetry", effectively the radio contact needed to complete the docking, Nasa said.

The spaceship was carrying food, fuel and other supplies.

Unconfirmed reports quoting a Russian cosmonaut, Alexander Skvortsov, said the cargo vehicle was spinning out of control away from the space station.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Mentally Challenged?

Can having bipolarity be considered as being mentally challenged?
I never thought so before I fell into a deep depression and now
to quote The Three Stooges: "I tried to think, but nothing happened".

"I tried to think, but nothing happened"

The Three Stooges

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Bipolar Is Stressful

I am now seeing that the way my bipolar disorder makes
me act and do things etc, is for me a very stressful way of
life. That is to say that my bipolarity makes me be a way
that in the long end makes me be full of stress and anxiety.

But mostly its the depression that gets me down and sucks
the energy out of me. I am now thinking very seriously about
going on Lithium which is said/documented to be the
only thing that really does work for bipolarity. If the Lithium
will help to take all the stress and depression away, then
it will be the answer to my prayers.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

The Antikythera Mechanism

There are 82 remaining fragments of the mechanism
that contain a total of 30 gears. The largest piece
contains 27 of the gears.

X-ray image

The Antikythera mechanism is a unique mechanical calculator from second-century B.C. Greece. Its sophistication surprised archaeologists when it was discovered in 1901. But no one had anticipated its true power.
Advanced imaging tools have finally enabled researchers to reconstruct how the device predicted lunar and solar eclipses and the motion of the moon in the sky.
Inscriptions on the mechanism suggest that it might have been built in the Greek city of Syracuse (now in modern Sicily), perhaps in a tradition that originated with Archimedes.

Clicking on the x-ray image will expand
it then it will expand one more time.
You can see a small phillips head screw
on the lower right hand side. You can
also see lots of gears like a watch.

This thing is amazing.
It is very hard to believe that this
thing is more than 2000 years old.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Artificial Life?

No, These are not eyes. These are cells, one is artifical and the other
one is real. Scientists have finally created DNA.


If we stupid humans can do it, then I guess aliens from other
worlds could do it too, and place such life on a planet (earth) to
see what would happen. We may just be such an experiment.
Now if those aliens called themselves gods and there planet
was named heaven, then it would all make perfect sense.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Big Bang=Big End?

I Just saw a documentary about the big bang and
where the universe is heading. Now it looks like
the universe will eventually expand until it becomes
nothing. All the matter and galaxies will breakdown
until there is only emptiness no longer expanding.

But what I think will really happen, is it will start to
implode until it becomes so small that it explodes again.

If nothing else, the Big Bang theory helps tremendously
to prove the creation theory (a beginning) so in a way
science is helping to prove the existence of God.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Next Blog>

Looking at others blogs, I find most of them
to be much like my own when it comes to
posting. Most people don't post every single
day and the blogs are about everyday life.

Also, the Next Blog> link (button) itself
can take me to the same blogs like being
stuck in a loop, depending on which blog
I start from.

If I start from this Weblog De Fuego blog
then I get blogs about autism and bipolar
and other psychological disorders. But if
I start from my piano music blog, then
I get blogs about classical music and such.
But the thing that really gets me is that I
never run into any of my own 35 blogs
nor the 6 I have showing on my profile view.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Found Missing

When I woke up this morning I found that
my brain was missing. Oh Well!!!!!!!!! :-)
Hopefully I will find it again tomorrow.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

All The World's A Stage,

"And all the men and women merely players"

God the audience of three,
Are always watching me.

Sunday, May 09, 2010

About Weblog De Fuego

This weblog de fuego, is supposed to be the front page
or cover page, that connects you to my art, which are in
fact other blogs of mine. But when I look at it over the
past 3+ years, I have not always done a good job at this.

So to sorta as they say "connect the dots" I can tell you
that clicking on my profile view will take you to the most
important of my 35 blogs.

Sunday, May 02, 2010

About 2012

I have studied about 2012 since the 80's
and now I am thinking that nothing bad
will happen as in the end of all life and
the world. This cycle happens every
26.000 years and the world/earth still
exists and there is still life on it.

While there could be natural occurrences
and some disasters effecting human lives,
I doubt that all life and earth itself will
disappear forever, at least not in our life
time. I have written 35 sonnets about this
back in 1993 here.

Monday, April 26, 2010

I Never Have Liked Muslims, But Now........

This is about the muslims in New York
that want to kill the creators of the
cartoon "South Park" for putting
Muhammad in a.................... bear suit?
Yes, a bear suit.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sunday, April 18, 2010

In Quiet Desperation

Since I'm bipolar, I can never be sure if people
like me or not. There is a group of people that
I sometimes hang out with, and I feel comfortable
around all of them save one. This guy I still have
no idea how to size up and get to know, and
now I think that maybe he just doesn't like me
for some reason.

Maybe some day I will approach him and tell
him that he makes me a little nervous. Then
ask him out right if I ever offended him or
something like that. I am very shy and always
have been since I was a kid so it is very hard
for me to talk to people.

Or maybe I should just let it go and blame it
on my bipolarity thinking that something is
wrong when it really isn't?

Who knows?

Today was the first day that I have been with
this group in about three months and I had a
good time. Two good friends of mine are back
together as a couple and I am glad.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Facebook Is Not For Me

I resisted for over a year to NOT go to facebook and open an account.
But after getting talked into it, I did open an account but did not
like it at all. I lasted about 2 weeks and when my two sisters found
me and started asking millions of questions about me, I decided
to close the account. It was too demanding and people I don't even
know, were talking to me and asking me stuff.
So, do not look for me on facebook cause you will not find me there.

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Volunteering For Space Flight Test

I will be shot into space faster than ever before possible.
When I return, everyone on earth will have aged 50+
years, but I will only have aged 5+ hours.
So, see you all when I get back, if your still here.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Turning Back Into Fire

The camera caught me turning back into fire which I do
many times a day. That's why I'm called 'The Angel of Fire'
My fire does not burn like normal fire does, and is not hot
to the touch. So its sorta safe.....unless I get mad, then it can
get hotter than the sun.

Friday, March 05, 2010

It's Always About Being Bipolar

Weblog De Fuego is about being bipolar and how bipolarity
affects and shapes my life into what it is today. My artistic
temperament is a product of my bipolarity as noted in the
Book, Touched With Fire by Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison.

For the first time in my life, three years ago, I cycled down
into a deep depression and am still waiting to come out
of it and back into my manic cycle where I am up and
creating art again. It is during my manic cycles that I am
energetic and creative and full of new and wonderful ideas.

The depression sucks the life out of me even to the point
of being stupid and not being able to think and make good
judgments. Its like being two opposite people, one smart
and energetic while the other one is slow and stupid.
This is what true bipolarity is all about.

"I tried to think, but nothing happened"

The Three Stooges

Friday, February 12, 2010

Dark Matter

Dark Matter Photo of Space

The link below is to an article about dark matter in the universe.

Dark Matter Article

Sunday, February 07, 2010

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