but I really don't have the feeling to do it while depressed. So
I need to force myself just a little to get into a creative mood.
A lot depends on if I am set up or not. Meaning is everything
ready or do I have to do something else first?
It's pretty easy to just sit down at the piano and start playing
a beautiful improv, but when the piano is all the way out in
the garage and I have to walk out in the rain to get to it, then
thats something else. Also The piano/keyboard is connected
to a computer which I must first turn on to activate the piano
program. Anyway........... Each thing I have to do makes it harder
to do the thing that I wanted to do in the first place. That is what
bipolar depression is all about.
Welcome to my world!
I know how that is. Many of the beautiful things I can create or do, just have too many steps to do when I'm depressed.
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