Weblog Journal

I think of this weblog and all

of its corresponding 38+ pages

as my journal. Although I don't

post every single day, I do visit

weblog at least once a day to

check for comments or any such

change.

I will keep Weblog De Fuego alive

as long as I can, but I am having

mental health problems right now.

Even though I don't get a lot of

traffic coming here to my weblog

I enjoy doing it and keeping it up

to date the best I can.

If you have the time, check out my

music, paintings and poetry all the

links for this art can be found right

here on this page. Also info/links

about my bipolar disorder and 

bipolarity in general can be found 

on this page.

Happy Birthday Son April 29

Today is my sons birthday and

coincidently mine as well.

Yep, my son was born on

my/our birthday. But the stranger

thing is that my best friend

Mike had his son born on his

birthday just 3 months earlier.

Like Mike said, how many friends

have their sons born on their 

birthdays ?

Before The Beginning

Excerpts from the book: BEFORE

which I am literally writing after you

the reader have read it ? go figure.

Before the beginning there was God

And God was alone without heaven

nor angels. There was no earth and

no hell. There was no light and no

darkness there was no time. Behold, 

there was only God who hovered not 

over the waters nor the void, for even 

these did not exist. 

Then God alone in his emptiness spoke,

"I shall make for myself a companion

to fill the empty void of endless living

alone." So the Lord God created Lucifer

the first most perfect created being that 

he God called an Archangel. All other 

angels after Lucifer were created in the 

image and likeness of he Lucifer.

It was then suggested by Lucifer to God

that he God should create other angels

to serve him God since God was worthy

of all praise and worship by all that God 

created. So God created many other kinds

of angels to serve and worship him God.

Meanwhile, Lucifer being  chief  Angel had

convinced many ordinary angels to follow

him Lucifer and to ignore the will of God.

But God knew the thoughts and heart of

Lucifer and he God waited for an opportune

moment to expel him Lucifer from heaven.

It came to pass during the war of expulsion 

that lucifer and God came to an agreement 

that God would create a third party being to 

worship and praise him God but without the 

benefit of seeing or being with God in heaven, 

as proof to Lucifer and his rebellious angels 

that God could be obeyed and loved even by 

those who can not see or hear or even touch 

him God.

So God created the heavens and the earth

and created man to be tempted away from

worshiping and believing in God by Lucifer.

But before any of these things came to pass,

God being still alone without companion

nor angels, did pull over and made a pit

stop at McDonalds and had two burgers

and a fry. Now while God was eating his,

Gods, burgers and fries, he God being sat

down did start to write and wrote this

sonnet:

While I was yet alone ...

While I was yet alone you came to me
With hopeful hinting of your creation
Such a wonder that you started living
The moment I first set my mind on you
And not that I could be caught by surprise
But the sight of you took my breath away
So I gave you my blessing on that day
Then wiped the tears of gladness from my eyes
To see your beautiful and perfect view
Standing there before me unforgiving
Life that I created for relation
To be at my side for eternity

Ere you were living I had to believe
That you in me wanted also to live

Sonnet 5 from the Songs of God.

To read more of my sonnets click here

Demon of Bipolarity ?

After careful study of this matter,
I have come to the conclusion that there is a
spirit/demon of bipolarity that is passed
from generation to generation as so
many other spirits of Gods to his people. 

This spirit can also be a gift

from God, and not evil at all.

Gentiles included since all such
spirits care not what religion or faith
one is as long as there is an opening
and there is moisture, a demon spirit

or a good spirit gift from God
will rest in the body of an unknowing
man or women. Later I will post all
scriptures that my beliefs are based on.


I don't need to try and convince anyone
of this since it is best they don't know.
But I am just passing on info that I gather
in my daily search for knowledge about
why I am a creative genius and am able
to do things that others can't.


So yes, I guess you can say that I am
possessed with a benign spirit.
This spirit allows me to tap into the
ancient intuitive knowledge and to
enter the temple of creation where
sit in wait the muses of beautiful art.


Yes at times this spirit gets out and
rages around town in a mania and
runs up my credit card bill on all kinds
of shit, and has even got me locked up
in jail a few times in the past. But I
have grown to like this guy, so lets
leave him where he is for now until
I can get more info on this bipolar
spirit thing.

About My Magic Flying Beard

It has been known for some time now,

that my beard has magic flying powers.

They say that if you see it flying that

you have been blessed, and to find one

of my beard hairs is good luck.

Snake with two legs!

No, this is not about President Bush but 

it could be. Check out this video and ask

yourself what kind of snake/serpent was 

talking to Eve in the garden of Eden ?

Newly Diagnosed ?

If you have just been diagnosed with

bipolar disorder and you are not

creative like me, then you are one

of the unlucky ones. You will most

likely spend most of your time in

bed depressed and suicidal.

Creating something will be the last

thing on your mind. You will have

no inspiration to do anything save die.

It is best for you to take and stay on

your medications.

But, if you are energetic, inspired,

imaginative and want to create 

something of art or work, and

if you only have rare bouts of

depression, then you are one of

the lucky ones.

There will still be rare times of

painful depression but in the

mean time you will be up and

doing something creative. 

These two examples of bipolar

traits, are basic and the usual 

norm. For the most part, 

people with Bipolar Disorder 

fall under these two categories.

You could have the potential to

be a creative genius, but if your

depressive side is stronger than

your manic side, then you will

not be able to fulfill your

potential.

The more manic you are in your

bipolar cycle, then the more creative

and energetic you will be.

Creating art takes a lot out of me.

I often go to bed and rest after

I have completed a work of art.

Scroll down to find links to my art.

A ray of hope is shining through

for those people who have the gift

but cant use it. I have this advice 

for you: Use the power deep within

you to fuel your imagination into

creative visualizations of a better

happier you. It says in holy scripture

"As a man thinks in his heart, so is he."

If this advise does not help you, then

may I suggest that you just shoot

yourself, and try not to miss. :-)

Click here to go to first church of

bipolar disorder .com

 

Easter and the Resurrection Story

Dracula is the story of the Resurrection
of the damned. A life after death after
life story. Couple this with our Lord
telling us to eat His flesh and drink
His blood, you have a cocktail of
resurected Christian vampires.


This picture creates an uneasy feeling
in the gut while standing with one foot
in the grave and the other foot in the
ice box floating up to heaven to be
served as a dish later at the wedding
feast.

Like a thick thorny brush you must crawl
through to get home, so is this picture of
us crawling through our own concepts and
ideologies we have of how we think things
are and how they work.

So Dracula is to the resurrection of the dead,
as Jesus is to the resurrection of the living.
So if there will be vampires in heaven,
they will be living resurrected vampires and
not dead resurrected vampired.

Now, if we include the Easter Bunny in all
this, we create a serious mess of bloody
screaming Christians biting the heads off
little bunnies and completly sucking
all their little white bunny red blood out.

So, we will not include the Easter Bunny
in our little senerio and we will take out
the vampires as well to leave a nice clean
Happy Christian Resurrected Easter.

Not a Bearded Lady !

Angel De Fuego photo taken, 3-21-08

Even though my dumb Nephew
calls it a dress, I started wearing
a dishadasha this year, I should
have done this years ago. Over
one billion men every day
on this planet, wear dishadasha.

Now I fit in better with the other

billion or so men that look just like

me, even though I live in Southern

California.

Although I am not Muslim save in

the spirit of humanity, I greet wearing

a disha with holy reverence since I am

also a legal Christian Reverend.

I use either a Jewish kippot/yarmulkes

or an Islamic style kufi/tarboush

instead of a baseball style cap.

this is also done as a reverence and

respect to God as per Jewish, Muslim

and Christian tradition of covering

the heads of holy men.

To visit the church I founded and
am also one of its leaders, click here.

Why Does He Do It?

For Money? For Fame? For Life?
For Art? Because he can?

I do it from hope, hope that maybe 

one day the right person or persons
will see and hear my art. Art that
speaks a message and stimulates
the imagination.


Art that lives on in my name, after
I it's creator am dead in body.
A beautiful melody I once heard
in my mind, like an angel singing
in heaven. Yes I got it written down
on paper/recorded and now it will
live forever captured by me.


Michael and the Dragon
which I imagined in my minds eye
captured on digital canvas forevermore
by me.


Like ear candy sprinkled with wisdom
and metaphysical metaphors, my
Sonnets are beautiful works of art
each one a masterpiece.


You may think to yourself, this guy
has a store house of beautiful art just
waiting to be discovered by the world.
There is no reason for this guy to ever
be poor, he could sell his art and live
real good. So why is he a poor artist?


Yes, if you are a person that sees dollar
signs when checking out all my Poetry,
Music and Paintings, then please e-mail
me and be my Manager.


I can create the stuff all day long, but I
just can't market it/business.
People like me with artistic creative genius
need people that can organize their art
and get it out to the public for purchase.


That way, we can all make a little money
and try to have fun doing it.
However, as you read my weblog and
start to know just how crazy I really am,
keep in mind that if I was a normy normal
person, without bipolar disorder, then I would
have no art to spark the flame of burning
money in your pocket. My personal
Bipolar Disorder, turns me into the
goose that lays the golden eggs.


Not every single artist has Bipolar disorder,
But bipolar disorder to an artist is like jet fuel
when poured on fire. So Ya! I can be so weird as
to scare you away, but people pay lots of money
to have the shit scared out of them.


Where there is a will, there is a way.
If I am scaring people away,* then I want to
be getting paid for it. Your Job is to find out
how and make it so. No Jesus freaks nor
selfish capitalistic pigs need apply since
I am the goose that lays the golden eggs.


If you have experience working and dealing
with bipolar artists and their manias,
and their Art/Product. Or if you think
that you could handle the job,
then give me an e-mail call.


Notice:
Nobody is allowd to use any of my art for making
money without me being there, involved and
getting a BIG cut. I should not have to remind
everyone that God is watching us all, but just in
case you forgot! Smile you're on Godly Camera,
and His holy video will be used against you
in His court of law, should you do the wrong thing
concerning me and my art.


* link