Nothing Intelligent To Say

Thinking of something intelligent to say

just doesn't work for me sometimes. I could

blame it on my depression, so I will. :-)>

Asked G-d To Take Me

Yesterday I asked G-d to take me but

G-d let me live one more day, so here I am.

Hurrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!

Oh Tetragrammaton!

Keep me from those who would let me

do harm to myself, by believing their lies,

and kill me Oh G-d for my stupidity/foolishness,

and receive my spirit into your loving hands.

*Angel lies down and waits for G-d to take him

for being too stupid to live*

Don't Matter How Far You Come

There will always be someone who thinks

that you have to still come up to their image

level in their serpent brain. For example:

I used to be a wizard and have actually called

the spirits of the dead into my presence so as

to effect things around me and to even enter

the body of a living person their perfect twin. 

But I gave that all up for Yeshua.  What?

Forget it!

Who Were the Nephilim?

Click here to find out what the Bible says

DAB is Down?

If anyone finds their way here from Daily

Audio Bible, please tell Brian that the DAB

site is down. Every time I try to go there,

all I get is this:

Database Error: Unable to connect to the database:Could not connect to MySQL

It don't seem like it is a problem from my end, since every place

else I want to go on the net, I can go. It all started after trying to

reply to a new thread titled COKE. the author is called iamacanadian1

or something like that. I did get back once this morning and left a post

on the windfarm new thread.......anyway!

Obama is AntiChrist?

I have been wondering since before

his election, if Obama could be the 

so called AntiChrist or angel of light

who takes over little by little and even

almost tricks the true believers.

But now if Obama nationalizes the banks

City Group and Bank of America....and it

looks that way, then Obama really is the

AntiChrist. I have done lots of research

on this.

Demonic Stronghold ?

Why on earth the devil would ever want

to hold me, is beyond me. I don't like him 

either. It seems like spirit molestation akin

to child molestation. That is to say, if the devil

ever had a stronghold on me, it would be because

he was spiritually molesting me. Like a spiritual

pervert. Does this make any sense?

Nibiru and 2012

Nibiru+2012

Mexican Muslims-This is Not Good

Right in out back yard, we (USA) have a growing

problem. Right now it seems harmless, but later

we may have Islamic Mexican extremists living

in TJ. Click here to see and here the nest of 

vipers forming. 

Mexico Discovers Islam

The fact that Mexico is turning to Islam

makes me wonder about Muslim & Catholic

relations in the same towns. Sounds dangerous!

I live right near the border on USA side, so 

I hope not!

Market Losses, No Big deal

Wife and I have lost $20.000 in recent market

down turns, but I really don't care. Like Job

in the Bible, I came in with nothing, and would

rather go with nothing. My depression has 

nothing to do with money. I have been homeless

and poor many times in my life because of my 

bipolarity. The truth is I will never be rich since

Jesus says that it is almost impossible for a rich

man to go to heaven.....so I don't want to be rich,

cause that thought scares me.

see article below:

Dow Nears Lowest Level In a Decade

Brian DAB Look Alike Contest

As you can see, I look just like Brian on his DAB site

photo. I even wear black too! :-)> Luv You brother Brian!

Gyd.

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If I Was Not a Christian, I'd Kill Myself

Thank G-d that I am a believer in Him,

or I would have killed myself months ago.

I could still get worse with depression but

I am hoping that my faith will make the

difference in the end. Only G-d or meds can

save me now. Now I understand why people

do it since bipolarity really can drive one mad.

Bipolarity Sucks and Then U Die

I have been bipolar my whole life, but this

is the first time that I have had a Major 

depression like this. It really does get worse

with age. I will soon go on meds and am even

asking for prayer. it's all up to G-d now!

God Or G-d

Sometimes we Jews write God like: G-d

depending on who we are talking with.

But I am a Christian Jew sometimes called

Messianic Jew. So when I am on a Christian

forum I write God, but when I am on the

messianic forum I write G-d. Sometimes

I can't remember which is which and where

I am so to me God is really G-d

What?

Forget it!

If I Was Superstitious, and I Am!

Today being Friday the 13th, I got up,

Listened to the Daily Audio Bible, and 

prayed.

Nothing To Say Today

Nothing to say today

My brain has gone away

But even if I did

Both my lips have hid :-

Can't find them on my face

They moved from their old place

If you see them send them home

So I can end this poem.:-) 

My Manias Can Be Golden

When we bipolar' are off our meds and in a manic

episode, we can feel like gods in mind body and soul

even though others don't see it. It's that silky smooth

feeling in my soul, like rubbing up against or touching

G-d feeling that I get at times. like when I know all

the answers to all the questions. Like when my every

thought seems like a glimmering jewel on a platter of

silver.....at least to me. A controlled mania (by willpower)

is for me a powerful tool that has no equal. If it was up

to me, I would always be in a controlled mania, but it's

not up to me, it's up to my bipolarity which also can be

depressive causing stupidity. I have recently learned that

there may be new meds out there that can keep me up

and smart, I hope so cause being depressed and dumb 

is just no fun at all. :-)

Seeing My Cycles Without Meds

It was almost impossible for me to note

my bipolar cycles in the past, since I was

always high on something. But after not

drinking alcohol for over a year and not

doing other drugs, I can finally see it

when I shift from one cycle to the next.

Last October 2008 I can remember the

feeling of coming down from a, what seemed

like, two year mania. I went from being 

energetic, sharp/smart, always doing a

project and loving life, to a depressed mess

without the smarts to to anything...... all

within 3-4 days. I couldn't believe it but

it happened before my very eyes. Then I

said, YES I finally got to see and note first

hand while sober, a cycle change in progress.

I was so excited to be witnessing and 

experiencing my cycle change, that I never

felt it until I did, meaning it all happened

so fast that it was over by the time I felt it.

Anyway, now I am looking forward to seeing

my change from this depression I am in, to

an up and energetic mania. But I hope it 

happens soon, cause I am about to go on meds

if it doesn't.  

I May Have To Go On Meds

As much as I hate the idea of going on meds,

I may have to anyway. For the first time in

my adult life, I am in a depressive cycle of

my bipolarity. This is not just a few days or

weeks, but since October of 2008. I have never

been this depressed for this long. This is all 

new to me as I am used to being up manic and

creating art. I am learning a lot about bipolar

meds from a bipolar forum I joined last week.

It seems that I can take some meds and still

be creative, only time will tell. I see a new

pdoc on March 2nd and I am thinking about

trying Lamictal and Ambilify.

True Bipolarity is Rare

More often than not, doctors diagnose bipolarity

as a means to sell their bipolar drugs. This is

now common knowledge among true bipolar'.

I heard a doctor on the net saying that there

are 6 million bipolar' in the USA alone.

But what he didn't say was that out of the 6

million only 600 thousand are true bipolar

and the rest are just led to believe that they

are bipolar. We all know that doctors are in

bed with the drug makers to push their drugs.

True bipolarity is artistic creative genius, but

the rest are just collateral damage. Victims of

the drug makers and their doctors. According 

to doctor (her math) Kay Jamison who is bipolar 

herself, there are only 600 thousand true bipolar' 

worldwide, and 90% of these are artists.

Read Touched With Fire by Dr. Kay Redfield

Jamison. 

Bipolar and Grandiosity

I really don't need to say much here save that

grandiosity is a symptom of bipolarity. It can 

be treated with meds. If you are grandiose then

people won't like to be around you and will walk

away from you shaking their heads. 

GRANDIOSITY..... Don't go there girlfriend.

Good News From My Doctor

It seems that I am not going to die after all.

At least not from any liver problem and not

tomorrow. Oh well! better luck next time!!!

I Have Nothing To Say Today

Walking Away For a While

I have decided to not post anymore on the

Science Forum, at least for a long while.

All I do there is to make myself look more

stupid than I already am. After being accused

of trying to make a pity-party for myself

I realized that I was wasting my time there.

If people want to learn about bipolarity then

they can just go read about it themselves.